ast public speaking is finally over!! i'm dying of fear. my heart is forcing the way to every beat until i feel the suffocation. it saddles. no pace to have any extra breath. nerve whacking. whenever i feel slightly relax, my overloaded brain will initate to arouse something nasty to spoil the peace. ended up, i got myself in this shit, shaking and panicking again.
now now.. it's over. history. the most assuring piece of news, no one will fail this. i created such a big hoo-ha and i thought i wouldn't survive through it.
but i did!
applause for xinyi! tomorrow will be another day. assessment. shall sail early and battle with the kiddos. it's gonna be tough i know; but there's nothing that xinyi can't accomplish. some assurance please~ no more booing or demoralising words. moral support is expensive at this point of time.
walk with me or scram back off. don't put me down at this point of time. believe in karma. you curse me and you'll get yours soon. may lady luck bless me with the greatest of all. children be good and all to excellence.
flying to the harbour of sucess!
cheerios to xinyi's early celebration. i see myself smiling. a change of this flamboyant skin and song shall bring me chips of luck and confidence!
38.2! it sucks. down to bug of illness.
confession! i told the subconscious me to stop doing that; yet the conscious me is offending it. i hate it when things are out of my control. i ought to slap myself. i dreamed in lecture. bad. no more sluggish! kick that off.
itoldmyselfno; butistilldidit. Yours
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