today's paper is atrocious. it kills me flat. blanked out for fifteen minutes and doubt i can get my desired grade. even if managed to pass, it will be another lousy grade that pulls down my gpa.
hate it when studied till mad, i couldn't tackle still. out of that 40 pages, the eight pages i didn't read much, all came out. wth. there's no luck. prayers not heard. nvm.
yikes! dpip gone.
second fiery thing, my pencil case was left in school. forgot to bring it back. wow, so clever. to think last night i stuffed in many of my newly bought pens. in fact, it's all of them. at least twenty bucks to get my new stationaries?
it must be my karma for cursing the invigilator. for coughing and burping behind my back. feel digusted and it affects my mood. maybe i should write suggestion letter to request for politeness in the hall?
thumbs up. left it in 56, 0402.
third case, i took my usual bus home. there is this uncle sitting beside me. and when i was moving out for alighting, i feel that my ass was being brushed once. did he do it on purpose, accidentally or i'm just overly sensitive? sickening.
reached home finally. mum scolded me. von scolded me too. blame it on my carelessness. but what has it got to do with them? i should have keep mum and no one will add on to my anger.
let me cool down. just being touched and all unwanted things cropped up. there's no empathy but naggings on how stupid you are. feel lousy. didn't want to say much either.
my temper was short. i'm getting more cranky as before.
just realise that i forgot to photostat that missing note from max. where on earth is my soul? what is occupying my mind! i need to be shoot and roared at for goodness sake! the nitty gritty things seemed to affect me badly today.
this period, often find myself staring and glaring for no reason. ahh. apparently, i'm just a meanie. stop me when i did that again. it's unintentional.
so tired to study right now.
not in the right mood.
i'm going to mourn for
my paper,
lost pencil case,
that digusted brush on my ass
and
my forgotten note.
shit shit shit. kick my ass and staple my toes!
hate to be screwed up by little peanut things.
i'm a loser!
things went wrong when one is financially tight and down on luck. people rain sacarsms and scoldings came knocking. what else more for me? i'm waiting.
don't worry about me. i'm alright. won't die yet. the most die of fatigue. the current trend. hahas.
i need my sun right now.
to shine my reviving power,
and make me know that
there's blessing in disguise. Yours
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