today i'm the villian. i let von waited long for me. my bad. just couldn't wake up at all. whatever my reasons are, i feel guilty. a bad partner today.
i did not think about her. told her to go home first because i was real dead this morning. maybe i'm not clear enough so she went back to school to wait for me to wakey. gosh. i ought to be kicked. fancy let all to wait for me this stupid girl.
but nevertheless, we had a nice dinner. yoshinoya. used to dislike that but i got this weird habit. i would still headed for tries despite my disliking. pepper lunch and this, i succeeded in eating it now. sidetracked, oh yeah! i love their coleslaw. it's addictive!
though the time we spent is short, i had a pleasant time. friends do wonder, aren't they? ^_____^ was getting some accessories and something caught my eye. wanted to get a chain for my bf but von commented that it looks like heartbreak instead. it is a heart that is being broken into two but the meaning is not that? blahs, i didn't get it in the end.
was medidating and there comes a reflective song..
these few days, i've been feeling better. think lesser and resuming more of my cheery smiles. have been reminding myself not to fall back to the time where i swallowed in deep saddening thoughts. constantly told myself that i must be strong to save myself. i don't need him seriously. should move away from my pathetic love fate.
stop giving myself false hope and stop accusing of not able to do that. nothing is impossible. it's only a matter of wanting or not.
i have loved and been loved. that's enough. yeah i mean it. i shouldn't be greedy before i began losing them. i'm much more fortunate. perhaps, my horoscope is right. optimistic is the key and my fastest remedy. to cure it all - -
you are my love, my everything. i can give all up because of you. the tears i had shed are more than anything before. too bad, you are hers. never will be mine..
i'm moving on and shall not look back. yeah, that's it.
i will try no matter how hard it will be. =)) Yours
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