because i'm not happy. i want to lead a life on my own. not to be triggered by others. i need to be freed. i don't want to do things that contradicts my stand. what i saw is already very clear, extremely clear. it's just the stupid me that refuse to do something to it. my ties with all are not going well.
what i need time, is all bullshit. i don't even have the mind to let go. so what if i was given the time? just let me have myself die in it and soon, i'll leave it. afterall, which human doesn't have a flaw? i'm just refusing to let go something that is dearly to me. that's all.
yeah, call me a loser or whatever. i admit. i can no longer talk to people.. i don't find it wrong that going out alone but unable to find a soulmate to talk to is pathetic. don't wish to stay for yesterday's socialization so i left early. felt so out-of-place and lonely even when i'm surrounded by friends.
but, i didn't want to go home yet. i roamed around alone till my gf come and look for me.
i disappointed her. i'm sorry girl. i don't wish to explain any further. nowadays, why do i have the thought of not going home? i used to be a home girl.. yeah, i used to be one. but now................
i don't want to do things i don't like. i want to give all a stop! rejecting all the crap that obstructing my life. i don't want and i don't wish! i'm feeling green when i shouldn't be. i'm such an idiot. my pain was being harped on repeatedly. shucks. it's better that you don't know me. afterall, i appeared to be someone cheery. yes i am but cheerful people do fall too.
i disappoint myself again. i need to be out! it's getting out of control.
e m p t y.
do you know something you said has break me apart? something are meant to be said only once. but what you promised really touched me.
a rekindled love is never good. Yours
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