i admitted. i'm on the verge to breaking down. perhaps i've make too much promises and trying to please so many people. or i shouldn't divert my attention to so many people which i think i haven't? i don't want quantity but quality friends. max will always be my bestiie. when there's xinyi, there's max. ((=
anything happens in club will be only like a dream or nightmare. and it's very true that, i should never compromise to my clubbing etiquette. i mean it.
i only want to have fun dancing. what's wrong with that? i'm properly dressed, so what if it's tube? it's not like i didn't wear anything. there's nothing wrong dancing with a guy. like i say, anything happen in club will be only within it.
i know la. dancing with guy should be bolted and killed right? so next time i shall go dance with girls instead. club is to enjoy and dance. as long as my conscience is clear, i won't compromise. i didn't kiss or molest guys. i wouldn't want to anyway.
SLUT. it ruins a girl's reputation. yikes. for those who knows, be glad that i'm not one. for those passbyer, just let this poof off your mind.
am i really that unworthy to have some happiness for long? that i can't even possess some tiny winy bit? to think last night, i was still telling kevin some optimistic point of view of mine during our way cabbing back..
why everything started to get screwed up together? i took different route when things doesn't work, but i'm not given the opportunity to be happy. i'm forever trying, can't you see?! friendship, kinship, relationship..
stop killing me la.
though it's only a week, i do cherish our friendship. maybe it's because i thought we could click well. but it seemed like i had to let this friendship off. girls are jealousy-filled creatures and yes i'm pissed off that i had to compromise now. idiot. i simply hate to give in to things that i shouldn't. shucks. that's not me! that's not xinyi!
i don't need self-pity, go away. my tutorial is awaiting in early morning but i'm insomniac again. i really want to sleep so much~
dear confidant, lend me your shoulder tomorrow alrights? i'm just stupid to be bothered by things that leave me with tears.
words that hurt are more than cuts.
hidingsadnessthroughsmilesisxinyi'sforte. Yours
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